show me the way ;

Friday, July 29, 2005

~ 1:47 PM ~

the wind blows..
and the cloud is gone..

the bad has turned good..
the good has turned bad..
irony in life.

there was the make up walk for walk-for-fund.
haiyo anderson reali getting pretty stupid. all sorts of ridiculous stuff they plan for us.. especially when its exam period!..

trg was funn..
played 1 singles, half a doubles(no time ><)..
must play more accurate. ><
some stupid ppl damn zuai.
nvm.. suckers.

jiahao so free today.. come sit in our trg.. lolx..
hmz..

ttp cancelled the maths test scheduled for tomoro.. cool! ttp rocks! no wonder the whole klas respects him >< hahx..
he has suddenly become so understanding =P always postponing our test cause we havv other tests.. hhaha.. we so bad take advantage.. but well.. 3/6 always gain from us.. lolx.

hmz.. discussed bout that issue during english period..
hear a bit from each and collate.. it all becomes a book.
realised alot more things ..
haiya those 2 problematics..
i m still the best. >.<
hahax. bhb.

choz.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

~ 1:54 PM ~

i must say this is a very upsetting matter.

repetition of the same talk sure tires us out.
lets just leave things to be is that it?..
or are we suppose to give the utmost care and concern as [cry] suggested..

to indulge in personal affairs or to stick with the more realistic choice of frens?..

the truth lies in the eyes of the beholder,
not even the need to ascertain.
any living soul can distinguish the fact.
the fact of desperation,
the fact that none can deliver what one desire except another.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

~ 2:16 PM ~

spastic junior is so interesting. ><
lolx..
the drastic change.. i have to remind her..
prompted her to ask ah ma not to be late.. hahx.. and she did..
oh wow. and she wasnt late today.. amazing..
walked there somemore.. wif chunying.. ahhx.. amazing.. reali. we saw her walking when the bus passed by..

*awaiting*

a team of victory..

Sunday, July 24, 2005

~ 9:33 AM ~

To the PMS Bug Catcher of Anderson.

Re: PMS virus spreading rapidly.

It has come to my attention that recently there had been lots of viruses hitting us. No doubt there has been the case of PMS virus which has no one distinct source and is spreading rapidly. Maybe not as deadly as SARS but definately attention seeking.
It has acted first on the weak immune systems in little kids named friendship and then carried on to attack the ones with stronger immune systems. But all in all, many were affected.

the little kids named friendship had been harmed and they have had thoughts of suicide due to the torture they felt from the virus which was unbearable. Although the world is under high technology, there has been no exact cure for this disease found yet. Pills called tolerance had been issued to all patients who had been diagnosed with this incurable disease.

One pair of friendship had been discussing about this recent problem and were wondering what had happened to their other groups of friendship. They have known of other friendships that have had similar problems and were keeping mum about it.

The breadwinner of a certain household had decided to take a different approach towards this problem. They have decided to leave the infected little kid named friendship to die by isolation without anknowledgement, therefore prevented the rest from getting infected . The little one had been feeling miserable but the household had been covering up by feigning an act infront of the kid..

Reporting News at 10 last night: Yet another group of friendship had been affected by this plague.

It has always been this case. The pair of friendship had discussed the effect this calamity have had on them. They were worried this would lead them to a living hell or a dead life. a disband.
so much for their worries, a group of friendship had found another group of friendship. Probably this group of friendship haven been much aware of the recent change in things due to other distractions. Life has been practical and it still is.

Reporting News at 6.30 today: The PMS virus had moved on to affecting adults who were once able to take the pressure from the virus. It is believed that the virus had become more immuned to the control pills issued to the patients. They were able to suppress the effect from the pills and become stronger.

Little children from the society ABT had recently been complaining bout their teacher who obviously had been affected by the virus. They were upset by this and were on the verge of breaking down. Were they upset because of their teacher?? This brings about the benefit of a doubt.

Stay tune on the 10 o clock news. Any new research on the virus will be broadcasted.

I, for one, don wan to see this disease spreading and scaring the little kids out there. It is such an annoyance and disturbance to everyone. Dear Sir/Madam, I hope you would look into this matter and QUIcK.

YOurs faithfully.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

~ 4:02 PM ~

verge of tears.
is this a feeling of being touched.. helpless.. or mixed up.?..

some sort of good example our captain has set for the rest to follow.
fiona quoting captain: *maybe she is right.. the motivation to go trng is not as great as the motivation to go home*.
and so what we hav left with us is a bigger mess. probably a bigger pile of shit than before.

not good at words, not in any position to speak.
wonder what am i doing all these for.
having too many brain cells, trying to kiil some.

the previous thoughts of not disappointing the seniors or at least those who care.. seem to be so.. i dunno.. ~~faggot's thinking.~~

suddenly in these two days 2 seniors have approached and enquired about the current team's situation. Attendance, attitude and all.. And the most disappointing case as some of us should know, has some what started to place an impact on the team. The thoughts of failing and losing hope encircles the brain. The feeling of plunging off once and for all formulates. To put it nicely.. i am tired. to put it crudely.. i cant be bothered.
If anyone were to flip to the CCA badminton section in yr book 2004, they bound to read the description on one of the players. " ** is a good role model for other badminton players in our school to emulate." Where has our role model gone to?..
each time having to face a team that seems half crumbling is devastating. especially when it looks as if you are the only one seeing it and it seems oblivious to the rest. when you are the only one feeling troubled over it, for being the only one foreseeing the crisis.

and the seniors having understood the situation had turned speechless and *shruggs*.. "eh. i dunno wad i should say. though we not there le but we still care. you should tok to cap.a team cannot be liddat. if u all need help pls rmb to come to us=)"

a dead vice cap we hav. the team has lost its structure. it should hav been time we reconstructed and reshaped or recover the lost bone.

*i take my hat off you and shall name you after miracle.~ alot you hav said. touched? tinge of motivation?.. your words does hav some cow sense. purposely go against you. =X thanks.

must encourage one another
must get our morale high
must get back on our feet
must improve
must win
msut talk to joan
she is the captain
the pillar of support.
fiona saying such things to me is another miracle.

Friday, July 22, 2005

~ 1:35 PM ~

sighx. PMS virus circulating like free these days.

today before training went oppo to eat.. then later somehow ended up late by 10mins for trg.. and so suay today coach not good mood or wad.. then somehow i suay suay today late. shucks.

for the 1st time he told us(late comers).. you all better go run 10 rounds if not then jolly well don train. (translation from chinese)..wah.. so fine lor. run then run la. big deal.. so we ran.. or rather meigui and fiona walk.. ruth and me run. hahx. yah.. then went back trg a bit. mood totally sian diao.. do 1 drill then 5 o clock le. so we do footwork outside the courts.. yah.. thats all for today's trg.

hmx. am i slow or slower or slowest?.. hahx nah.. definately not the slowest. =P

today then found out that sort of big news or sth.. ok i din noe it was real from all the jokes and all... slow can?.. hahx.. ehm but elder sis-younger bro relationship i truely don believe in. haha. interesting. =S lolx.. our batch are the real normal studious bunch of kids.. omg.. the batch before and after is real hiong.. >< .. not convenient to cont.. lest ppl involved kills me. >< hahasx.

and now i reali do think its getting ridiculously big a mess we are in. a bunch of slackers we have. shucks. lets jus forget about winning shall we?. prep talk?. it doesnt seem to be part of my job huh.. ah well..

we don care wad ppl don care
when ppl who care may think we care
she thinks we care when we don care
and we don care whether she care or don care.
>.<

choz.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

~ 2:59 PM ~

sian diao le. school's ok.. 3/7 has a bunch of nice ppl ard.. though the atmosphere is reali tense at times.. due to competitive competition.. shall elaborate in further updates..

after hearing about some ppl.. some things jus involuntary rushes back.

hatred. overwhelmed.
threatening of frenship with a few words.
if it seems so worthless to you then lets jus 4get it.
ignore. for all we care.
disgusted. by the effortlessness of putting things.
wadever.

Monday, July 18, 2005

~ 7:59 AM ~

ah finally finished the preparation for show and tell. Feel like jumping onto bed and sleep.

hmx.. since we are talking about depression.. how many of you have actually felt depressed before?. *wow. preparing to present already*
How can you tell that you are depressed?..
Adolescence is a difficult time for nearly everyone. In addition to the physical changes that puberty brings, adolenscence is a time of great emotional change.

Many-perhaps even most- people go through rocky periods and emotional ups and downs during their teens. It almost seems to be a necessary part of figuring out your own identity as you approach adulthood. Emotions and situations tend to seem more dramatic in adolescence than they did in childhood, and mood swings are common for teenagers. It is also common for teens to argue with or withdraw from their parents. High school is very often a contributing factor to the turmoil of adolescence because the atmosphere at many schools is competitive (3/7!), cliquish, and high pressure, which can make it hard for teens to maintain strong self-esteem. This can make it difficult for concerned adults- parents, teachers, family physicians- to tell whether a teen who is irritable, withdrawn, self-deprecating, moody, or overemotional is truly depressed or merely going through the normal "growing pains" of adolescence. For that reason, it is helpful to be aware of the signs of clinical depression so that you can recognise it in your friends or yourself.

*For more information, tune on to show and tell.*

Sunday, July 17, 2005

~ 3:00 PM ~

blogging at anoymous's behest. honoured??.. hahs.

_~happy birthday qijia!~_

hmz.. supposingly there's girlguides campfire.. but quite obvious that i dint go..

nth much to blog bout thes few days.. jus that some ppl got a pig leg.. hahax. nth to broadcast about.. so nev blog..

in jus a few minutes then it will be my's birthday..

ah.. nth to blog about..
stalking time..

becoming more hypocritical.
thats bad..
feigned performance.

seemingly drifting away..

*stares at piglet*
*tickles*
hahax.. so cute.

tomoro's there's the sci competition for some sec 4s.. then my bro too free wan go support his frens oso.. council must find ppl go.. but as usual everybody not that free..giving stupid reasons to not go.. so nowadays everyone dared not pick up my call.. good lor.. nvm.. xi guan jiu hao.

12'oclock..

.~happy birthday mingyu~.

Friday, July 15, 2005

~ 1:26 PM ~

yea! 14th of every month signifies the end of misery. haha. cause its time to renew! yea! then no nid so pathetic.. ask ppl for help to msg ppl.. zzZ..

woah. the whole body aching. suppose everyone feels the same. after last trg's pt who doesn?.. butt cramp. leg cramp. lalala. and performed like shit in court today.

hmz.. today's PJS day..

~_happy PJS day!!_~

bought chocolate cake to celeebrate. got the kuays to finish the cake for us. then cixin brought maggi mee with hotdog for the kuays and we steal one another's food. =p
hmx. the crowd must be envious. we got cake they don. lolx. ok crap~

pq: thanks for piglet and the card. though i remember saying i will luff at u if u buy me soft toy. so i m luffin. *hahaha* aiya u.. no creativity 1. =p

ser: hahas. thanks for ur pig oso. now can save more money alr. hahas.. so sad u din win the scratch thing.. budden nvm la hor. try ur luck again next time. hahax.* kapok from pq*

oh yea. tomoro's olevel listening.. remember everyone reading this must wear full u.. thanks meigui for reminding.. ahhs.. jia you to all!! =)

Thursday, July 14, 2005

~ 1:20 PM ~

ah. o level chi oral today. the passage was ez. but duno y i stopped at the last sentence and stoned for like 3 secs before i continued. ~~shit.~~.
the examiners must be thinkin :" uh wad happened. she got possessed or sth?"
hmz.. so shuang. relaxed now. finally over. stil got english oral though. *sigh*..

wierd. sth's wrong wif best friend. how come best friend look so sad. ignore me some more. so unlike of best friend. wow. somemore stoned and walk alone. hmx.. sth must be wrong.

the only fun thing for oral is the time being quarantine. sit wif frens and crap. then later see everyone get all tensed up and then slowly count down to yourself. wow. that sort of feeling. and seeing naomi dancing to destress. lolx. funny.

hmz. i wanted to say this ytd. ah ma is spastic. and meigui is too free.
look at her msg.
"hi!! I'm bored and has too much smses to waste!!" bet she is like spikin me la. say i no sms. good lor. lolx.

hmx.. tomoro's pajamas day. wad hav we in store for ourselves?..

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

~ 9:50 AM ~

ah yes. we did narfa today also. three of five. sit up. shuttle run. incline pull ups/ pull up.

heh. wad should i sayy?.. sit up was easy to score as usual.. incline ehm.. ok la.. pull ups are the killers.. not me luckily >< *laugh* *points at those guys and laugh* wahahaha.

and shuttle run caused a big hoo haa. this time we are running without bean bags. must touch the freakin yellow line. MUST touch. or fadlhi will skin u. >.< hmx.. ehm.. seems like everybody slow down by 1 sec. ops. which caused a lot of failures and sliver/bronze. the once easy to get a A item now drags people down. geez..
so now everybody demanding for a re-test. so far highest record held by jj. 10.25 i think. yah.

jia you everybody.!

~~shit sit and reach next week.~~ cannot make it liao ><

~ 7:43 AM ~

oh wow. so early reach home today. stil got time go shop a bit. for a reason of course.
upcoming birthdays:
pjs day- 14th july.
qj- 16th july.
my- 17th july.
jg- 25th july.
ber- 27th july.
kumboon- 30 july.

sharks. so many. howwww.. *wince* broke.

learnt some interesting stuff on the way home.. hehx.
senior.
peer.
wow. haha.
hmz.. found some interesting stuff.
hehex. so fruitful today =P

zzZ nev go for trg. >< extra de ok. i nev skip trg. =P

so shuang so early at home. 1st time. my record. 3.40pm. hehez. great. came home wif zeh. *wince*

Monday, July 11, 2005

~ 8:54 AM ~

oh yes. yesterday was andocarnival. arrived at sch ard 8o clock all thanks to Mr Tok ~~who bluffed us.~~ >< and it was early and i only remembered seeing arkar cybil cixin audrey hannah and how-to-spell-her-name. oh yah. alice aka sth. so went to walk ard wif cybil but end up she disappeared. so came to ruth's stall.. saw their orange juice. milo. roasted marshmellow + chocolate dip. muffin. and fruit kebah on sale. helped them roast marshmellows which obviously turned out horrendous. the soft marshmellows start to sag. *droop* ok wadever. sounds crude. and naomi obviously helped me to publicise my failed 1st attempt of the roasted marshmellow. ><
hang ard for a while then went to visit the other stalls..
- 3/1 booth.. selling chicken kebah.. *the one that ruth mentioned for stealing their idea.. lolx.*
- masturah's booth.. set up by malays.. selling brownies.. tuna/egg bread..
- scholors.. selling stuff they brought from china the last time they went back during the june holidays.. *freshly imported* lolx..
- 2/5 booth.. sellin cup noodles corn.. etc.. din notice.. *ops*
- test tubes wif names.. duno who set de..
- cyber club sellin neoprint services..
- fiona's clas.. 2/6.. sellin food.. sushi.. cream puff..cookies.. hotdogs.. and wierd stuff which i duno wad.. lol
yah and more.. but i duno them and cant be bothered.. and along the corridors of level 2 were IPW groups of people showcasing their project works..
3/7 doing super pitch.. which i skipped the presentation part..

to all friends who had stalls: hope u all had some great earnings ok..
spent all my money giving ppl face.. spastic juniors.. peers..
oh yah. and to those who sing horrendous out of tune and din realised.. pls go attend singing lessons.. *ops*

then later met serene and renying.. and slacked even more.. pull them go buy from ruth's stall..

then duno wad we did.. end up sitting ard at 3/1's booth.. then later went to self entertain wif balloons.. jasmine renying cixin weeyang serene weiwen haobo leroy lejun ronald and me. yup. all take balloons and started to attack haobo at one time. then the balloons filled wif helium ma.. so that childish weeyang keep making my balloon fly away.. and once i tried to catch my balloon and then i jumped into a flower pot. =.= so malu. and i caught the balloon but it burst on the pricks on the plant =.= so much for my effort. and that stupid wy luff at me. >< grr. so much from a fren. zzZ

hmz.. then renying mentioned bout this as 2/3 gathering.. hahas.. so funnn =) lolxz.

heard from cybil our guppy galore got $150 for the project..
every grp except 2 la.. scholor and best fren de..
best fren must be slackin la..

after the carnival..
spent my whole day stoning at the stupid hairdresser in toa payoh. thanks to ser and renying. and cixin and jasmine stoned wif me. stone for like 2 hours. then so sad no more sms liao. can msg ppl oso. sianx. so stoned my life away. zzZ.

and today had walk for fund thing.. skipped it .. *ops*
and came online then jj was like shootin me wif gun lidat. "YOU DIN GO TODAY!"
hahax..
no time to do work. sharks.
geog mindmap.
physics worksheet.
maths test.
oral!.
ahh help!.

choz.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

~ 2:22 PM ~

experienced true friendship?
how much do you believe in it?
when do true friends ever come by?

the camaraderie was great.
but that was before.
great regrets sayin this
but..
some things had its limits like most things did.
trying to take things lightly, lookin optimistic,
as much as i hope for the best,
would it seem as bad as i thought?
dangerously hanging on the precipice
yet it seemed oblivious to some.
was it ignorance or pure ignorance?
at times it all seemed great. but then again.
things wouldn always end up the best way.
all that talk bout being together,
would it all end up a show put up?

[act of pessimism]

[[the depth within]]

and it seemed like some are afraid to meet me.
giving the oh-i-pretend-not-to-see-you thing..
however much i try to ease the tension, it seemed fruitless.
and ending up not even saying "hi"..
even wif eye contact..
the sheepish grin on ur face..
wipes away all.
and lookin at me from side view,
you giv me the apologetic look -i hope- or the wad-the-hell look..
throw in the float!

Friday, July 08, 2005

~ 1:41 PM ~

1st time doing pc duty. it was ok. all i rememebered seeing was the flag. and for the 1st time i felt motivated to sing the national song. hearing mrs tan singing behind me. and i probably tot singing would help me relax. lol. as i recalled.. listenin to jay to soothe my nerves this morning.. and then the battery turned flat on me..

the periods after a storm.
some waves settled fast. others prolonged.

it had been awkward.
the period from when we left till she left.
it all seemed like time turned back to where things were like before.
when she was quiet and all.
not a word exchanged.

but the funny thing was we were walking towards the bus stop. and about to cross the road. then there was this lorry which drove by..wanting to turn into the main road. however.. the roof was too low.. and the lorry's top bumped into the roof. =.= a bit hard to imagine. u could ask me.. and we were like standin in the middle of the road.

thanks ser for the spagetti today.. sorry i duno how to appreciate spagetti. let kuays eat good leh. boost ur morale. hahax.

the lie that was realised
lack of communication.
would lying lead us there?
i doubt so.
attitude and effort not for oneself but for all.

[[the depth within]]

ser thinks some ppl are hard to stay angry at.
how far would u agreE?

Thursday, July 07, 2005

~ 2:06 PM ~

low energy level. *low mood* high morale. *self prep for tomoro.*

functions test was ok. Ttp is becoming nicer and nicer. not to mention flexible. and logical. and understanding. and just extremely good.

mr fadlhi [is this how u spell] was being racist during pe. ehm or maybe nationalist.

.reminiscing.

the sevens have turned
and left with twos.
supposingly threes have seen with just twos.
one of which depends much on the other.
the latter powerless.
the efforts have finally been understood
however much we used to ridicule it.
does the sky turns grey before us?
one of threes hav lost it
and has thus left thee.
are we left with ourselves?
approaches greets us with unwillingness
dawn on the fact that it was a purpose to gratify us. -with ease.
defeating all.
and another with jus about the same prospect to things.
and yet another.
skills or committment at this point of time?
with a weaker seven will we pull through?
will seven contribute to build the fire or just three blocks of wood?
not wanting a loss that we cannot turn back. regrets we cannot take back. again.

[[the depth within.]]

sucess is science.
with conditions, we obtain results.
we need conditions now.
calling for conditions!
attention!

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

~ 2:08 PM ~

oh cool. cai sang and her other scholar frens went to aviva open.

for god sake everything's gettin on my nerves.
stupid functions.
irritating pest.
act smart brother. ~~wasting my time~~
nagging mother.
~~damn~~

._relax_.

had trg today and yesterday. yesterday youth day. not sch and tan booked court. no coach so we self trained. funn.

wad a great difference from today.
~~shit~~ this week gonna suck.
pray for this week and the next to pass in a twinkle. with success duh.
=praying=

great. and some empty promises we have got here.and its funny why my greatdaughter cried =.= .. and seems like nobody appreciates. sigh ~~wadever~~ no mood to think bout it now. wait till after everything's calm.

back to functions.

choz.

nobody cares.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

~ 2:11 AM ~

oh i had a wierd dream. had to blog it before i 4got. it was vague.

we bought a cake and decided to celebrate ttp's birthday for him *which god knows when* and funny ~why ttp?~ why not joanne lee or tok or sth. lolx.

and the cake we ordered was extremely big.. no idea wad the size was but the baker was asking :"huh world size?!" lolx..

hahax.. stupid dream right.

and then on that day.. our plan to find some time to celebrate for him was not allocated.. and then ended up the cake landed wif me or sth.. and i brought it home for my family. *open the box* the cake was white all over. and i reali mean white. it probably looked like a block of opaque ice block. *cut it* it was all gluey and sticky.. not to mention gross.. and luckily the accounted for by the clas fund.

and i 4got wad else happened. i probably woke up or sth. *incomin msg*
hahasx..

paiseh pq. nev go..

Monday, July 04, 2005

~ 12:29 PM ~

look at the date everyone!

._happy 3705 day!_.

nth's much to update bout these few days.. everyone's busy mugging the 12 geog essay ques.. and then there's the maths test for 3/7 on wed.. pray for us. god noes wad to study.. so god tell me!

and my bro jus did some lame stuff.. smsin some fren of mine and crappin with him. wow. keeping a mysterious identity.. maybe i should get him to sms hb. then hb will hav free entertainment for a while and hopefully not bugg me or joan. hahx. *opx* so bad of me. but well nvm..

wonder if we stil going to watch initial-D tomoro.. hmx.. going or not is one thing. can go or not is another. oh well..

spent the whole of today in front of the tv watching aviva open championships.. turning into joan aka couch potato.
so cool. gao ling rocks! mix doubles rocks!

and spastic ahma was discussing wif me who gao ling should marry.. married not yet. if not then marry zhang la. lolx. and i think she look like one of those aunties from spottiwoods.. friendly aunty. reali!>.< but spastic ahma told me not to insult gao ling. lolx. she don look like aunty. hahas..
so sad gao ling lost her gal's doubles. and can tell the guy talking in the background keep praising gao ling "and now gao tries to change the score on the score board!... and she did it!" when it was opponent's mistake. lolx. nvm gao ling rocksx!

and after that there was the male singles.. the china guy *suddenly forgot his name* look like liu jiao lian i tot.. then spastic ahma say not. ask me don anyone say. make her luff until wan puke. hai. she good la. encourage other ppl then suan me. *sigh* y m i so nice a target to suan?..

choz.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

~ 8:15 AM ~

phew. after a 5 day of work its finally break time. school has been ok so far. jus getting all the reminders from our teachers for the upcoming orals and tests!.. O level oral! English Oral! Functions test! Sets test!

hmz. a longer weekend. youth day.. the youth day concert by the teachers were held yesterday.. in our pathetic hall cum canteen. imagine. the atmosphere was like ehm. so pathetic. the whole school squeeze in the canteen and those who cant squeeze into the chairs hav to stand. wow. interesting right. ANderson is so innovative~ and pjs now resort to bringing our own food for recess and some of those chance seeking seniors are selling cup noodles. wow. and they are bringing their own kettles to boil water to cook noodles and coffee. wow. =.= ANersonians.
and jus some time ago i was askin P and S if they regretted coming to AND.. and they were like saying no. they are proud of it including the uniform. hahx.

and yesterday ser was saying how guys are better than gals cause they are more "anything" than gals. they mix ard better la.

learn that getting caught up in a hidden relationship would prove to be hard work. then one would increase their worries and white hair grows. *sigh*.. yah. and thats wad we would hear from one more often. trust and understanding is what works then.. leave it all to fate..
things would seem to change as soon as school reopens. the way ppl do things may not satisfy one. at this point of time one would then have to accept things the way it is. learn to take things easy and not think too deeply into things. it jus may not appear as what it is.. fret not. yah?..

i learn.