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Sunday, May 18, 2008

~ 10:42 PM ~

I can't believe today's the official last training. It's such a happy and sad thing at the same time, i can't decide what to feel. About two months ago I was quite certain i was gonna feel liberated, relieved and was looking forward to and awaiting this day to arrive, besides i was telling yy & wy how i could finally start mugging full blast and not worry a thing about season. But now that it's reality, i'm feeling so attached i don't wanna let go. It's probably due to the way this season has shaped me, and how it ended so differently from last year. Back then, we cried on the way back to school and stoned for what felt like eternity after the loss to tjc, we knew we wanted it and could have made it, but things just went wrong. There were regrets, but it's different this year. We wanted it, nearly made it, and never let go till the end. Like 'manda said, we did our best why should we look so solemn?

Ah well, i'll miss mr wong, mrs wong, tiffany, desmond, david (who've been so nice and patient)
all the juniors, peers and also not forgetting adrian's spasticity. Through the JJC match, i truely felt that we're like a team, the guys and girls together. yy once said this yr's team was quite segregated between the guys and girls though among ourselves we were closer than the previous batches. But from the way the guys cheered for us and encouraged us, it felt far from that. I guess the only thing i wouldn't miss after stepping down is the irritating job of being treasurer. Imagine it's coming to end of may soon and some people haven't paid for the month of April. sounds like a joke. -.-

This season, i experienced for the first time the st nicks tradition of saying a prayer before their matches. For JJC's match, we asked for strength and for everyone to perform their best, and it was answered. I guess we shouldn't have much to regret. And because yy nearly beat the china import, mr wong really treats her like gem, going round telling everyone the wonderful story. Imagine if yy beats xiao dan, she'll be famous. (haha. if yy reads this i can imagine her face.)

I'll miss striving for the common goal of top 2. Now that it isnt within reach, i wish all the best for the juniors. Kill the china team next year!

Saturday, May 17, 2008

~ 9:34 PM ~

I probably haven't cried that much tears in a long time. It was a totally emotional day at semi-finals yesterday against JJC. It's perhaps tears of anxiety, disappointment and touched-ness mixed together in a brew.

This year's season has been pretty smooth sailing for us, the vjc girls' team, due to both luck with draws & lineup and of course our personal strengths. Every match had gone right for us, until yesterday. It would have been ideal for yy to catch their 3rd singles, but the lineup was terrible because we met strength to strength for both singles and doubles, and them being china imports were definately skillful. The Red shirts and fellow victorians came down to support and they really got the atmosphere high. Though the JJ supporters had to walk in through two doors and ours only need one door, our spirit were definately higher. I was really fired up when cheers of "V Viva Vivala Victoria" rang through the hall, i'm really thankful for having their support. Thanks brother for coming (after my match) -.-

And so i went on to ask about our lineup & the rest told me Pris was meeting "their third singles". And yy said she was meeting Xiao Dan. So i assumed i was meeting their second. Though we ideally wanted yy to catch their 3rd, pris probably had a chance with her as well. So i went on court, and when the umpire checked our identities with us, i saw the china name. Deng Yuan. Nothing struck me. Perhaps i was too absorbed in myself and the support from the crowd.

So i played with everything i could give, and the match ended with a decent score of about 14 and 17 respectively. I was feeling good and moving well, and everyone came to consensus that i performed well. I din't feel pressurised at all since i knew the team would always be behind to back me up regardless of results. It was fatigue that overcame me, i was "sou-ing" so loud with every point it probably drained my energy. I thought if i could match up to their second singles, pris could probably take their third. So, i went to encourage pris and told her to go for it! And that was when the truth dawned upon me when pris said:" let me tell you a secret, actually you're playing the third singles." It was the greatest shock i could imagine, and i just lost control of my emotions. Not wanting to dampen the team's morale, i decided to chill outside. Even encouragement from the supporters and fellow team mates couldn't cheer me up because i really felt cheated at that moment. Then i decided i'd to give all the support that i could on the sidelines, perhaps a miracle would happen.

May and bel played rubber with the china pair, and as Mr Wong said, they played like warriors, in the 2nd and 3rd set. I could see the support and strength that they shared which led them to victory. Jingying was literally exclaiming "We beat china!" after our first doubles won. And of course, the crowd went crazy once again.

Next up on court was yy with their first singles Xiao Dan. yy was totally amazing and took the lead, and ended the first set with a score of 21-19. Practically every supporter on our side screamed and jumped around like they never did before, and it was really comforting to have RJ friends coming over and shouting words of support and encouragement, even sharing our joy when yy took the first set.. And as bel said to her, you were really strong and played so well even jaslyn cried for you. haha. yes, i was really touched by her strength and determination to win. And after that, yy was sharing her jubilation of having vanessa giving her advice as she linemens-ed the match. It was really Singapore strength against China. Though yy lost to Xiao Dan with a rubber, she really surpassed herself. Her hardwork and all the pushing of her limits at training must have shown on court yesterday.

Jingying and 'manda met the singaporean pair and won as predicted. The match happened concurrently with Pris' match. And so, we lended our support to Pris, which was very much the deciding match against their 2nd singles. We all knew Pris hated runners who could keep long rallies, but she ran like she never ran before. Ultimately, we din't manage to upset the china team but we all played our heart and souls.

Everything about yesterday was a drama. I can't believe we were resorting to leaving our fate to a pen and coin. But never had we imagined that their 3rd singles would play first.

Mr wong was really happy about our performance, because we all played our hearts out and moved really well on court. He said it was the best he'd ever seen me play, and furthermore wasn't sure if he could groom me into a good player when i first came in. It was sheer hardwork which brought me to where i am. He felt that the only reason why we lost to JJ was probably that they were more consistent than we were. They aren't that fantastic. I was literally crying as he spoke, because he never gave up on me, and gave me the chance to prove myself. There had never been an experience like that in And. before.

Mr Tan Yew Hwee is proud of us as well, because he heard that we fought all the way.

And Ms lim's message was really heartwarming, despite how we've disappointed her. "For jas to put up a good fight, for both doubles to win, for yy to almost win a china import, and pris not giving up til the end, i think you girls deserve to be the champs! I believe the guys cheered their lungs out right? so so happy for you all, in my absence."

This season has been the best i've ever played in my life.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

~ 10:02 PM ~

Hello all..

Being sick for the past few days was terrible, especially when i'd to miss playing AJ match. I hope my fitness hasn't spiralled down because the real challenge is coming next week! Like yy said, we'd probably see each other almost everyday next week, with competition on mon- fri (excluding thurs). WOW. I was feeling great about my performance before the sick bug hit, and could almost upset any freak that comes knocking. Now now, let me pick myself up fast! And show the AJ teacher how he/she totally underestimated me. hahaha. -_-

Nevertheless, we still beat AJ with 'manda totally whacking their singles upside down. *quote mr wong*

Thanks wy for coming down to support, though i know your ulterior motive.. hahaa.

Anyway in this sick period i came to realise what are real friends. I'm thankful for having wash and xl with me in school. Thanks a lot to wash for rushing out to get panadol during break, convincing the security that you'll appear back in a flash, and dissolving the stupid panadol when the other guys weren't willing to do it, and of course carrying my bag around. You're indeed brother!

And of course to xl, thanks for nagging at me 24/7 to take the panadols, even to the extent of calling every four hours to remind me. Sorry to bully you into carrying my bag for me as well though you're also sick. -.-

And to everyone else who showed care and concern. Thanks.

The only good thing about falling sick this time was excusing myself from mugging and chionging sleep. And when people are desperately trying to find ways to get out of Sports Day, all i had to do was flash the excuse slip. hahaha. Oh well, that's just self comforting.

p.s. this blog would probably stay stagnant for a while, since i found more pleasure writing in a personal diary.

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Hi everyone. I should say you must be scrutinizing every part of my blog to be reading this arent you? Well, if you're that bored or interested in me, this is me you're looking at. Just a typical mundane human being living in this distorted world filled with what we call friends and foes. It's just me to get all maudlin and touchy about friendships and covalent bonds that i painstakingly built, and it's most dreading to realise what you call friends are actually fair-weathered ones and ditch you for others. You know.. that sort of ambivalent feelings which arises with such friendships. From young, my pedagogues have complained of me being temperamental and from there i have learnt and seen the world beyond me, where there happened to be people fairing far worst than i do. I realised in this period of isolation that life turns out to be happier for everyone if people knew how to be sate with life. It's just in the genes that human beings have to take things for granted and learn to appreciate things only when they have lost it. Sad isn't it?. I admit possessing that characteristic, which led me to losing what i should have treasured most, with great regrets. Now, like Krishna, we are inclined to seeking comfort from things that we are familiar with, unaccustomed to changes. It may not appear to be me on the outside, braving the winds of the outside world, strong and unbeatable. Like the saying goes, never judge the book by its cover, and i believe in that, in the way i credit people. We all treasure private space don't we?.. It's just human nature. And of course it most dreading to feel deserted by your friends isn't it.. ? To feel cheated and betrayed.. Well, live a sate life readers!

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