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Monday, July 24, 2006

~ 10:58 PM ~

I’m bewildered,
Really.
All I can say is,
I have nothing to say.

Just getting a little nostalgic here, pardon me.
Time seems to be perpetual without things to look forward to.
It used to be training, but now, nothing.
A hundred lobbing during every training sounds rather inviting, almost contrary then.
But all that seems rather distant now.

Life seems to be a repetition.
Exams, followed by results.
Laments and jolliness.
It’s always those few top scholars.
It shows again in Chemisty.paper 1.

Nothing to lose,
nothing to hide.
It just keeps exacerbating.

Acknowledging facts,
Accepting the law of life.
Live life to the fullest we always say.
Though K transcended,
It's a good feeling to have attachments.
L is happy being attached to her brochure. lolx.

~~It's just a whole chunk of crap. Lit is boring.~~

Friday, July 21, 2006

~ 4:43 PM ~

Streaks of water flowed down her face like a squalid tap. It was lukewarm, distinctively like one being heated before. Tears inadvertently had fallen against her will though she tried hard to fight back. Heart-rending thoughts penetrated her clouded mind and her blood boiled.

She thought back to the day’s events.

It was Racial Harmony Day, a day where ethnic groups came together and pledged their loyalty to one another. On this especial day, the school was brimming with life as many were thrilled and getting involved in mixed dressing dynamically. She felt like a character in Sing to the Dawn, playing the active role of Darwan’s mother. It was a thought sparked off by her convivial English teacher that morning. The excitement rubbed off on her together with everyone else.

The mundane school life carried on like usual.

----

Just the night before, she had written in her journal the values of friendship. She found it all hard to accept that there was a law of life, the law that every one knew so familiarly as separation. “We come together only to go apart again.” Yet, “the law of life can’t be avoided.” Even her choice of seeking life in the world of mushrooms could bring no smile to her face. Her mind was the strongest opponent to fight off that instance.

She wrote that everyone needed friends. It was true, good friends led her through the darkest storms, though fair weather friends could leave her in times of need. Luck would bring her the best of friends and haplessness would bring fair weather ones. Despite that, everyone needs friends.

It is hard to be a good friend. Man never knew how to appreciate things when it is placed right in front of them. God had to punish them by letting them lose them. Perhaps she was wrong. It was a fiasco and she felt nothing more than a failure. She couldn't accept the fact that results surpassed friends. Perhaps they had different thinking lines all along.

Now, she feared to be alone. The chances of wild thoughts would spring and it was irresistibly hard to forget. She could only find joy in her friends’ laughter, but life had to go on.

She made a call for an affiliated task. When the subject was brought up, she felt tears well up in her eyes. At the same time, she saw what she did not want to see. Her mind went blank and her voice went hoarse, almost of its own volition. The call ended abruptly for she did not want the receiver to sense a tinge of sadness. She seemed blasé to the receiver, yet it was far from that. All she could do was stare into space, and let those tears act with gravity.

She had gone beyond herself this time. It felt like a repetition of those feelings which she had the year before. The things which she did, was somewhat beyond her usual capability. An attribute that nature has implanted in animals is instinct. This ability allows the brain to sense danger before it actually appears; at such a moment this instinct triggers a competence in completing a certain task.

Yet at times, those acts of heroism that human combine feelings and reason with, could have sent the wrong message. Her actions saw no fruit and all that she had found was callousness. She had set her benighted feet into a trap some years ago, only to come to realize she would be hurt in the end. It was utter disappointment.

She didn't think that friends could be seen as sources of distraction. It was simply ludicrous. She had a resolution to step out if that matters.

A snap back to reality and sadness turned to rage.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

~ 11:50 AM ~

It’s a relatively good day today I must say though not everything went my way; the way I want it to. It marks the end of preparatory preliminary examination with a biology paper. Like everyone says “It’s only preps la… Not counted… So it’s nothing.” It’s ludicrous when even the principal who is supposingly the one to motivate us has the same mindset.

After a few weeks, we finally have Yawen back from China. It must have been an extremely long holiday for her and she returns today unprepared for the tests which she claimed to have guessed her way through.

Oh yes. Happy birthday Mingyu!

Hmm… 14th July was PJS day. This year is no celebration year; I guess it’s the same for all birthdays. It’s time to catch up soon though.

I must say Just My Luck is a rather nice show. It’s worth the publicity though it might seem outdated considering the fact that it was screened quite long ago and there are less than twenty odd people in the cinema.

Its getting rather brief I must say, attributed to brain exhaustion. That shall be all for now.

~~I’m helpless.~~

Saturday, July 08, 2006

~ 6:12 PM ~

I hear my angels calling , there's much books for thoughts.
It cant feel worst to see 100 over pages of text waiting to be read, yet physically disabled to succumb to the mental strength.

I'm free from fast food, yet i'm feeling quite dead.
aches all around.

God.

Where's everyone? The messenger looks quite dead. Almost like me. zzz.

I found my antidote, its you.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

~ 10:21 PM ~

_.Happy four s3ven day!~

not in photo : zhongming (down with dengue), jasmine (food poisoning) -.- ,yawen (hibernating in china) .take care people. yuzhen?? , xueqian??..

Saturday, July 01, 2006

~ 12:31 AM ~

The final countdown - 30 June 2006.

This is a bunch of monkeys.

Look.. that's us.

We reformed, under the mystical hands of the mathematical aficionado. He deplored our way of handling maths, chided us and here we are, gathered as a class to show our appreciation. A pedagogue like any others, what makes him any different from the rest?

We set our benighted feet into the world of complicated maths, with unduly patience and concern from the wise man, we found the passion for maths. It was nothing like before, not the drive for languages nor sciences. How often do teachers provide not just knowledge but passion?

He tries hard and all means well. Hard enough for us to respect him and render him the silence in all lessons. It has been one and a half years, yet not a noise is made through out all his lessons, it was only solo performance. This is rare from 4/7, as it does not occur in any other lesson.

The most memorable times boils down to the efforts he had put into the badminton team, giving all the guidance and admendments that he could afford, coming down to watch us incessantly. It is heart-rending now that he is leaving, depriving us - his students, of a privilege that is once in a lifetime. Having been guided by him in both maths and badminton skill wise, i would say he is so knowledgable that maths periods sometimes converts to moral education, physics, biology or chemistry periods. Tranquility in him potrays such a confident self, which enables us students to trust him wholeheartedly.

Presenting.. Mr. Tan TP....

Looking full of vitality , yet probably languidness from too much photo taking. He must have had taken hundreds of photos.. Just from us its at least 50 odd shots? ..
Becoming backdrop by accident.. lols..

We have grown, strength to strength, under the rejuvenation and upbring of Mr Tan. (of course there were other teachers as well.)
~~Ironically the picture displays Arkar's childishness. lol.~~ As a matter of fact, speaking in generalisation. Probably its the girls that have grown, look at the guys -.-

It was a total of two hundred and forty that the class forked out. Quoting Ek theng " Thats 10 dollars a month !" lols. Indeed it is a lot that we have spent, resulting in a depletion of funds.
When at last we called for a farewell lunch with him, we had realised he was gone. Gone out for lunch at Toa Payoh with some other friends whom Mrs Chong and Mrs A. Lim had named, even after several reminders on the day and days before. -.- Aww.. "were we forgotten?" Bewilderment was drawn on the faces of those present, almost the whole class was crowded in the canteen looking like a bunch of lost sheep.

He did turn up eventually though.. With assistance from Mr. Tan Fk who claimed to charge me 10cents for every call i made to him in the desperation of getting Mr. Tan TP on the line.
We bottoms up to Mr Tan and to our success ahead, for this we shall not disappoint him.

the gals.. nice pic ^^

and..

the guys... (kind of sexist huh? hahs .)

with Mr Tan..

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Hi everyone. I should say you must be scrutinizing every part of my blog to be reading this arent you? Well, if you're that bored or interested in me, this is me you're looking at. Just a typical mundane human being living in this distorted world filled with what we call friends and foes. It's just me to get all maudlin and touchy about friendships and covalent bonds that i painstakingly built, and it's most dreading to realise what you call friends are actually fair-weathered ones and ditch you for others. You know.. that sort of ambivalent feelings which arises with such friendships. From young, my pedagogues have complained of me being temperamental and from there i have learnt and seen the world beyond me, where there happened to be people fairing far worst than i do. I realised in this period of isolation that life turns out to be happier for everyone if people knew how to be sate with life. It's just in the genes that human beings have to take things for granted and learn to appreciate things only when they have lost it. Sad isn't it?. I admit possessing that characteristic, which led me to losing what i should have treasured most, with great regrets. Now, like Krishna, we are inclined to seeking comfort from things that we are familiar with, unaccustomed to changes. It may not appear to be me on the outside, braving the winds of the outside world, strong and unbeatable. Like the saying goes, never judge the book by its cover, and i believe in that, in the way i credit people. We all treasure private space don't we?.. It's just human nature. And of course it most dreading to feel deserted by your friends isn't it.. ? To feel cheated and betrayed.. Well, live a sate life readers!

liKez.

+memories of the past..
+2/3'04.. where i met all of u..
+4/7'06.. the past.
+And. badminton.. where unity lies. love the ppl in it.. especially my batch of peers and the seniors!
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+vjc shuttlers.. the domination of spasticity.
+you.

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