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Saturday, July 23, 2005

~ 4:02 PM ~

verge of tears.
is this a feeling of being touched.. helpless.. or mixed up.?..

some sort of good example our captain has set for the rest to follow.
fiona quoting captain: *maybe she is right.. the motivation to go trng is not as great as the motivation to go home*.
and so what we hav left with us is a bigger mess. probably a bigger pile of shit than before.

not good at words, not in any position to speak.
wonder what am i doing all these for.
having too many brain cells, trying to kiil some.

the previous thoughts of not disappointing the seniors or at least those who care.. seem to be so.. i dunno.. ~~faggot's thinking.~~

suddenly in these two days 2 seniors have approached and enquired about the current team's situation. Attendance, attitude and all.. And the most disappointing case as some of us should know, has some what started to place an impact on the team. The thoughts of failing and losing hope encircles the brain. The feeling of plunging off once and for all formulates. To put it nicely.. i am tired. to put it crudely.. i cant be bothered.
If anyone were to flip to the CCA badminton section in yr book 2004, they bound to read the description on one of the players. " ** is a good role model for other badminton players in our school to emulate." Where has our role model gone to?..
each time having to face a team that seems half crumbling is devastating. especially when it looks as if you are the only one seeing it and it seems oblivious to the rest. when you are the only one feeling troubled over it, for being the only one foreseeing the crisis.

and the seniors having understood the situation had turned speechless and *shruggs*.. "eh. i dunno wad i should say. though we not there le but we still care. you should tok to cap.a team cannot be liddat. if u all need help pls rmb to come to us=)"

a dead vice cap we hav. the team has lost its structure. it should hav been time we reconstructed and reshaped or recover the lost bone.

*i take my hat off you and shall name you after miracle.~ alot you hav said. touched? tinge of motivation?.. your words does hav some cow sense. purposely go against you. =X thanks.

must encourage one another
must get our morale high
must get back on our feet
must improve
must win
msut talk to joan
she is the captain
the pillar of support.
fiona saying such things to me is another miracle.

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Hi everyone. I should say you must be scrutinizing every part of my blog to be reading this arent you? Well, if you're that bored or interested in me, this is me you're looking at. Just a typical mundane human being living in this distorted world filled with what we call friends and foes. It's just me to get all maudlin and touchy about friendships and covalent bonds that i painstakingly built, and it's most dreading to realise what you call friends are actually fair-weathered ones and ditch you for others. You know.. that sort of ambivalent feelings which arises with such friendships. From young, my pedagogues have complained of me being temperamental and from there i have learnt and seen the world beyond me, where there happened to be people fairing far worst than i do. I realised in this period of isolation that life turns out to be happier for everyone if people knew how to be sate with life. It's just in the genes that human beings have to take things for granted and learn to appreciate things only when they have lost it. Sad isn't it?. I admit possessing that characteristic, which led me to losing what i should have treasured most, with great regrets. Now, like Krishna, we are inclined to seeking comfort from things that we are familiar with, unaccustomed to changes. It may not appear to be me on the outside, braving the winds of the outside world, strong and unbeatable. Like the saying goes, never judge the book by its cover, and i believe in that, in the way i credit people. We all treasure private space don't we?.. It's just human nature. And of course it most dreading to feel deserted by your friends isn't it.. ? To feel cheated and betrayed.. Well, live a sate life readers!

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