Thursday, November 24, 2005
~ 5:30 PM ~
It has been long since something new appeared here.. basically life's all bout trg now..
thinking of new experiences.. new people to get out with.. new lfe to go about.
so many thoughts, yet the inability to put into words.
~Why the reminiscing here.. shouldn we jus get to slp.
The fact that one year jus flew past.. when 12 months ago i was just a sec 2 kid. now sec4's coming.. Even the most dreaded thing that my bro nagged at me about since 10 weeks ago has ended - O levels. Talking about that.. even the sec 4's graduation ball has past. today. or rather yesterday.. Seriously time simply flies by and no one looks back.. except me now.. and yet the process in it is agonizing, tormenting slow.
From blog hopping we can tell that some had settled down new, others still hanging on to the past.. jus which should be the right attitude?.. It iznt always that everyone's satisfied in the end. Still remembering how bad the experience was of feeling that depressed when we jus started out as an upper sec grader. SOme moves simply goes beyong me. somethings that i wouldn hav thought of and done when not in a state of desperation. That has passed since then, and occasionally reminding myself that this indded is the best path for me. Is this sometimes what people call self deception?..
Life these days had seemed like a facade.. with some sort of artificial and superficial goodwill that is apparent. Jus beneath that mask spins a yarn. For instance ths frequent chalet issue had been a good example set. For promising to allow the involved a peaceful mind, elaboration shall be withheld. Instead we should be thanking the real man behind the show.
Further from that , the last 2 trgs has made me realise sometimes how lousy some frens can be. To prevent unnecessary unhappiness i suppose there isnt a need to reveal specific details.. Conversely, i did realise small things can make a difference. by simply being regarded.
some things may appear to be innocuous and of no importance to me. but in actual fact it goes a long way.
Jus some days ago my ma was on the phone telling her fren how sad she was cause her dancing partner made a remark which hurt her. she was a amateur at it therefore stil not skillful. she said her partner was a serious learner.. and said that she was affecting her dancing for not being able to coordinate.. jus a remark can mark someone for good.
Its 1.20. It must hav hit the wrong nerve to hav activated the above thoughts.
watched emily rose jus now. jus ok. the effects are good though.
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
~ 7:09 AM ~
i shall blog this when i stil remember..
i had this wierd dream last night. and everyone knows how irrational and illogical dreams can turn out to be..
warning: this sounds stupid. uninterested readers can X this page or skipp the following paragraphs. =/
this involves qj , wierdly rebecca, me of course and someone else whom i sincerely named as "best friend". (some people who noe wad i mean should noe who, so if you don then you arent some ppl. haha.) not to be misunderstood, this best fren is fake 1 not real 1.. (which means not you lj. haha. jus in case u are reading this.)
ehm yah.. so it was dark in this scene.. i presume its a multi story carpark.. where there are flight of steps leading from the top floor to the grd floor..
3 of us, excluding "best fren" were walking walking..
*bits and pieces of dreams*
then suddenly we were chased by this scary looking thing called "best fren"..
wierd.
so the 3 of us ran and ran jumping down the steps..
poor rebecca was slowly laggin behind.. we were all afraid i suppose.. with "best fren" being hot on our heels..
then suddenly "best fren" overtook us and came in front of us.
so we ran even faster. suddenly "best fren" appeared behind rebecca. poor thing was frightened and teared.
when we burst out into the bright daylight thru the door, "best fren" turned normal again. =.=
and it was saying it went to comfort rebecca who was crying =.=
ok nvm.
was chatting with eyawn (my maid)yesterday evening and she was telling me how much she wants to get married when she goes back after the contract ends..
she bragged to me about her having 3 boyfriends back in indonesia =.= all at one time =.=
so funny the way she put it.. let me luff until cant stand it.
she said:
"haiya. wan go back indonesia get married la."
"haha.. u got boyfren there ah?"
"got la. rommie. (duno how spell)"
"orh.. then u come here he don stil waiting for youu meh?"
"aiya. tell him lor. he wan marry then marry lor.. but he say he wan wait me."
hahas.. broken english from her..
"duno la.. go back if rommie married then find other one lor."
"huh.. then you not sad meh?"
"haiyo sad la.. but canot sad long long ma.. find other lor.. harry or ***(4got wad name)"
"wadde.. huh u 1 person so many boyfren 1 ah?"
"yah la.. indonesia all the gal don hav 1 only la.."
"huh then rommie noe you got other boyfren not?"
*nods* "but nvm la.. harry live here, rommie live far far lor.. so wan meet then call lor."
*tsktsk ... one leg step 3 boat =.=*
"but got one time i outside with harry lor. hold hand with harry lor. then rommie drive motor see me lor."
hahas.. sound so much like drama series
"huh?.. then wad happen?.."
"angry lor. rommie 1 week no talk me."
lols..
ok shall go now.. choz..
Monday, November 07, 2005
~ 3:07 PM ~
ok i shall blog. for renying's sake. hahaha. >.<
hmm.. so its the start of the holidays alr.. these few days slack ard and so its the start of the block revision tomoro.
arent we all excited to go to sch??! =.=
yeah indeed. better than rotting at home..
*but why do i dread dragging myself out of bed?!!*
ok jus brief outline of this week spent..
cant remember the 1st few days.. but should be slack ard at home.. half rotted.
nobody can guess wad i hav been doing..
maybe you can. but you wouldn. hah.
then fri went arcade.. sat went k-ster..
hmm.. don hav the song i wan. ><
sad case.
then these 2 days is spent reading comic.. aww the guy so shuai.
mad liao. keep lookin at shuai guys like chengjun ziqian and this youye..
where got such perfect guy on earth like youye??!!!
smart in studies. ~top in level~
extremely shuai~ and it's reali extreme such that every gal confesses her love for him.
and.. and.. he is the fastest runner in the sch!!
and.. he is v caring and nice to girls!!
awww..
does he reali exist??!!
ok we shall end here for today. lets hope tomoro will be funn.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
~ 4:25 PM ~
10 more mins.
before i am 15yrs and 1 day old. wahahahax.
hmm i shalln be typical since ppl say i will be. =/
but of course must still show appreciation for those who remembered.
this is not typical. its basic courtesy by the way. hahas.
oh yeah. 3 mins more..
well. as you were saying let this day be memorable.. hahaha. chengjun made it memorable! chengjun can remove monday blues.!! hahahahha.. ok fine. mad. =/ *self control*
lalala. 0 mins left. ok lame. cheers i am heading for 16! hahahaha =.= okk. *grab myself* sigh. chengjun drives one crazy.
why do i see those chengjun fans nodding their heads like its dropping off?..
look there...
see...
ahh someone waving ^^
serene!!
sokmui!!
you see someone else..
see.....
me!!
hahaha. ok nvm. ~certified mad
seriously it feels great watching stairway to heaven and weeping your heart out. no nid force tears out.. look. yes. see the tears falling by itself. sokmui must be v experienced.
so today was filled with arcade. ok or rather yesterday.
ehm. i shalln elaborate wad happened. *refer back to 3rd line in entry*
i shall make those bunch of pathetic few frens pay back. haha. especially that one. who say i nid to hav more frens. ya. thats you. the one who nids more frens also. ahahha. ok nvm.
thats all for now..
thanks again to all the wishes!
good luck to our great seniors for their Os. =)
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