jus received a msg from cixin.. walau.. read until i blur.
woke up in a mad rush.. late for project with my lit group.. meeting at 11 woke up and realised it was 10.45 =.= .. blame myself.. stayed up too late the night before.. lost in work. arrived an hour late.. luckily they are a bunch of nice ppl.. din take knife chop me.. and thank god i did not hav to ponder over wad to wear today.. jus grabbed the newly bought shirt and a pair of pe shorts.. then left in a hurry.. project ended ard 1.. went park to rehearse.. saw this cute little squirrel which jonathan noticed 1st.. then guess we lost our cool when a bee/beetle hovered over us.. after rehearsing twice we left.
i lied. i am guilty. haiz. i lost all my mood in a result of it. strangled by ropes named nags, results and mothers. it's like being on the precipice of life.. not that bad reali..
the feeling of hurt. hurt by the one you cherished. how does that feel.?
to have chosen to be entangled in this.. but din chose to get into this sort of shit.. to not start is better than to hav started and to be hurt in the end..is it?.. i m blinded.. it's sad to end things wif fullstops. though we noe thats how things work.
fucked up with myself when i know there isnt anyone else to blame.. to be first in every race and now i feel thats the feeling of being last.
Hi everyone. I should say you must be scrutinizing every part of my blog to be reading this arent you?
Well, if you're that bored or interested in me, this is me you're looking at.
Just a typical mundane human being living in this distorted world filled with what we call friends and foes.
It's just me to get all maudlin and touchy about friendships and covalent bonds that i painstakingly built,
and it's most dreading to realise what you call friends are actually fair-weathered ones and ditch you for others.
You know.. that sort of ambivalent feelings which arises with such friendships.
From young, my pedagogues have complained of me being temperamental and from there i have learnt and seen the world beyond me, where there happened to be people fairing far worst than i do.
I realised in this period of isolation that life turns out to be happier for everyone if people knew how to be sate with life.
It's just in the genes that human beings have to take things for granted and learn to appreciate things only when they have lost it. Sad isn't it?.
I admit possessing that characteristic, which led me to losing what i should have treasured most, with great regrets.
Now, like Krishna, we are inclined to seeking comfort from things that we are familiar with, unaccustomed to changes.
It may not appear to be me on the outside, braving the winds of the outside world, strong and unbeatable.
Like the saying goes, never judge the book by its cover, and i believe in that, in the way i credit people.
We all treasure private space don't we?.. It's just human nature.
And of course it most dreading to feel deserted by your friends isn't it.. ? To feel cheated and betrayed..
Well, live a sate life readers!
liKez.
+memories of the past..
+2/3'04.. where i met all of u..
+4/7'06.. the past.
+And. badminton.. where unity lies. love the ppl in it.. especially my batch of peers and the seniors!
+07s56 and jie-meis! the present.
+vjc shuttlers.. the domination of spasticity.
+you.
