Thursday, November 24, 2005
~ 5:30 PM ~
It has been long since something new appeared here.. basically life's all bout trg now..
thinking of new experiences.. new people to get out with.. new lfe to go about.
so many thoughts, yet the inability to put into words.
~Why the reminiscing here.. shouldn we jus get to slp.
The fact that one year jus flew past.. when 12 months ago i was just a sec 2 kid. now sec4's coming.. Even the most dreaded thing that my bro nagged at me about since 10 weeks ago has ended - O levels. Talking about that.. even the sec 4's graduation ball has past. today. or rather yesterday.. Seriously time simply flies by and no one looks back.. except me now.. and yet the process in it is agonizing, tormenting slow.
From blog hopping we can tell that some had settled down new, others still hanging on to the past.. jus which should be the right attitude?.. It iznt always that everyone's satisfied in the end. Still remembering how bad the experience was of feeling that depressed when we jus started out as an upper sec grader. SOme moves simply goes beyong me. somethings that i wouldn hav thought of and done when not in a state of desperation. That has passed since then, and occasionally reminding myself that this indded is the best path for me. Is this sometimes what people call self deception?..
Life these days had seemed like a facade.. with some sort of artificial and superficial goodwill that is apparent. Jus beneath that mask spins a yarn. For instance ths frequent chalet issue had been a good example set. For promising to allow the involved a peaceful mind, elaboration shall be withheld. Instead we should be thanking the real man behind the show.
Further from that , the last 2 trgs has made me realise sometimes how lousy some frens can be. To prevent unnecessary unhappiness i suppose there isnt a need to reveal specific details.. Conversely, i did realise small things can make a difference. by simply being regarded.
some things may appear to be innocuous and of no importance to me. but in actual fact it goes a long way.
Jus some days ago my ma was on the phone telling her fren how sad she was cause her dancing partner made a remark which hurt her. she was a amateur at it therefore stil not skillful. she said her partner was a serious learner.. and said that she was affecting her dancing for not being able to coordinate.. jus a remark can mark someone for good.
Its 1.20. It must hav hit the wrong nerve to hav activated the above thoughts.
watched emily rose jus now. jus ok. the effects are good though.
